Does size really matter...!!!

And then came the day I seem to be too frustrated with people making fun of me, teasing me with all sorts of irritated words. Most of them I had never heard. I was a shy, too introvert to say to anyone anything. It was not what i had expected of life when I entered in the first day of my school. I kept thinking of when the time would end and I would be home besides my mother, sleeping calmly, protected as if I was the hero then. I kept saying that it is hard in school, students irritate me, push me blindly, I was not the person thought to be left alone to live peacefully.
Mother smiled and it seemed the solution of the whole problem is there with her. May be she has always knew that if this might happen, then how to let me get out of the web trap. I waited anxiously for the solution to flow out with her words. Blankly I waited.
She said it was a matter of few days, you will soon shine outwardly...being introvert is not in your genes, you have to live the life king size, these are small problems. As an experience they come and make a log in your error file. The next time you will know when such things could happen and how to deal with them. She said that you will always have the solution to all the problems that you face. Soon I would not be the one you would be asking doubts, but then you will have me always by your side for sharing your thoughts. She said laugh at your problems and think about not the solutions but the problems that may come after solving the problem.

She said people have cared about size only when they are unaware of the importance of those who are devoid of the size. People will soon learn who you are, not because you tell them but because of what you will do will define who you are.

True Love

It has all started when sood said "birth is the default constructor of the human class".
A variable was created long ago, undefined type, unsigned. Never has he ever wished to enter a for loop, never has he ever changed the datatype. Neither swapped, nor returned. You can consider him being a class variable, inherited some functions and no variable from a parent class. Lots of functions have been created, I have been travelling some of them and some are yet to be created.

The true love for me is defined by the very aim of being the best and working as a code still unwritten most efficiently.

Think beyond Respect!!

From the process of rectification and restoration my mind wanders to the ultimate aim of one's life. A little generalized I may seem but the importance at the max a person can think upto its capability of his/her life is respect.
I shall again not go about explaining and lecturing my obvious thoughts on respect, no one can seem to tell more that one already knbows.

Life beyond respect is achievable. You tend to be a common man till you think of getting it more and more. Infact there are people who have already achieved it. I have seen people tyring to show off, working for attraction that they can reveal. Egocentric attitude can be easily found in one among 5-6 people that you see around.Even I do it many times. But the motive has to be thought about.The time when you think your life is going great is the time you should be sure that you are getitng off the track. It is important that you realize what you are doing and why you are doing.

Realize that every step of yours is a different future altogether. A temporary attraction of a person is not the solution to become the known. It creats an impression of "wanna be known", which is highly abberated.

Ideological Regions

My thought chaos suddenly burst upon a very strange thought. While I have having fun with the various moods of life, in the 4 long holidays at home, I came across the most fascinating of the thoughts that could have occurred to the human mind.
My mind wanders over regions. Not as in literally states, these were specific group of people I would be talking about. My thought wanders…

I met girls(:p). The DU girls as the rest of the world says. Unlike the differences that you think exist, there is still much more to investigate. The DU seemed to have a sole aim of turning their status from “Single”. Though it may be something that everyone wish to have, they are the most open in expressing their feelings. And if you find someone like me listening to such a conversation, your jaws will drop down on earth.

Pooh : hey…kal meri date hai …(long pause)……sam and kush ke saath.

Katie : sam to tera hai…kam se kam kush to mere liye chhor de……

Pooh : waise bhi dono saath aa rahe hain…tu parson kush ke saath chali jaana

Katie : teen teen ke saath ghoomti hai…teri wajah se mera ek bhi nahi hai

Pooh : tu chinta na kar…teri setting ki zimmedari meri…

Katie : abe uska ek hi to dost mast lag raha hai…uski bhi gf hai…(if I forgot to tell you ki we all were present in a shaadi)


Then there are people who have been born to think that what they know is right. And never under any circumstances will they make their knowledge to be tested. I think that a person should not be a teacher in that subject which he does not know. But then he should know that he don’t know. Rather the kind thinks that he knows what he doesn’t actually know.

If you know what I am saying, these kinds of people tend to bring negativity in your life. That region of population should always be avoided. They tend to change the way our minds are work according to their own even if they are wrong. These kinds of people would always be found in groups. Because they know they don’t have much existence without support.

Regions are formed with the changing minds of the people. People with the thought that we are IITians form a region and those with “they are IITians” form another region. Indeed lies a class that knows that eventually “there is no difference” also form a region.

People who think there future is how they see the world now 15 yrs after make a region, People with acceptance of every opportunity in life form another region. If you confine your knowledge to what you know now, maybe you will have a few of the possible opportunities left to explore. When you do some work, never define the boundaries of “THE END” or the end will definitely come. Rather let your works define the boundaries itself. Let your boundaries be flexible.

Always be in the better region.


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A Change for Good...!!

Not before I actually slept, lying on my bed…

I was shivering, as if I have been forcefully inserted in the tank of ice water that lies on the roof of my bhawan. But I was at ease, at ease to see a future of comfortably sleeping in the double blanket lying above, trying to protect every part of body. Sometimes I feel it is sinking down, down on the dirty floor. Maybe that’s one reason I do not like gravity. I pushed my legs up in the air till it rises and I am sure all of it is on the bed.

Besides the bed lie my laptop, it twinkles with the IMG screensaver. I stare at it without blinking thinking of my life without it. I cannot…

I want to surf net, but the Wi-Fi is not working. I want to work but I feel cold as soon as I would ever get out. I decide to be at ease.

I have always thought the life has given me many pleasures, sometimes more than expected. People like me for who I am, for what I think. I feel sorry for those I rejected in the interview. But life goes on. What if I had been rejected, life still goes on. What if I was not the one in 4, life still goes on. What if I were not here…
The mere thought of déjàvu can vibrate your soul is what I am thinking. I decide to be at ease and let the life go on.

I close my eyes and decide to let my thoughts wander to the best of the moments in my life. What I actually want. I sleep.

I am in a room, somewhat familiar to me. I am laughing. I like making fun of Gurveen. He is someone I have always wanted to be in company with. I remember, this is the nightstay we had. On the sofa is lying Saurabh, my best friend. And its not once our thoughts have wandered on the same point. I feel myself at the loveliest moments of my life.

I have never forbid with what they ever ask for, even when it is to convince my parents. I just wish for this life to never end without them.

We were talking about horror stories. It was like once we did on our trip to Panchmarhi. It was 3:00AM. I remember it to be called as the demon time. I have seen exhorcist. I have always wanted to prove that I was bold. Bold enough not to get frightened. I hid my face behind the blanket, listening to what Aditya was telling. I did not want them to see my expression. I wandered my eyes all around the room. A portrait of the village was hanging on the front wall. It had a girl looking straight into me. I kept staring and same did she. I flicked my head with the wildest of the thoughts I was having. I found saurabh lying, scared with as Aditya approached to the final scenes of the story, the girl with legs, hands and face reversed. The biggest mouse I have ever seen. He hid his face thinking if he could not see, then no one could see him. This seems to be the tendency of most of the sapiens. I still love the way we had spent the time together.

No selfish thoughts, no tension, no competition, no race, just fun. I just realized what I have always wanted in life. The secret to my happiness. The final thing I have to achieve in life. May be this shall change the course of my life, change the way I have always been born to think, to overcome myself over my greediness. No to grab but to accept the best place in the world. That is how I have to change………That …was the Last Night.

Thought Chaos!!

After a long await, i comes.....another post...
I thought of continuing the book reviews, but it seems the stars that made me come so close to books soon went away. Or may be the "special one" was the one, the one "you will know who" who made me scare away from novels . Its still in front of me, a few pages to go. The point is that though I am a lot philosophical about life, I found someone more than me, a lot more than me.

It has always been difficult to visualize situations (...abrasive jet machining...) that do not feel obvious. I very well remember the day I was going through the mysterious IIT Roorkee placements. And I was like....ohh!! 7.64 for P&I is a big deal. Moreover the focus (...tungsten carbide and synthetic sapphire...)remained on the 4 of the 30 placements that went on nice. The main attraction I commit for me to join IIT Roorkee P&I rather than IIT Delhi Textiles or Biotech. But then who would have imagined....
They say if you just think about something (...volumetric removal rate...)and follow the route, you meet the thinking. It depends whether the "think" is +ve or -ve, but the thing is that it should be a thought. A thought that prevails in your mind, bothers you for the next every step (...dolomite for etching...)you take in your life for some goal that may not even be close to the thought.
They say you should lead an interview. I tried...there was a pull every second...when krishna says that you should work without even an inch of the thought of the result... give your best...was he not aware of the consequences then, did he not think of a win. Probably because the destiny (...electron beam machining...)was in the hands of Ved Vyas...what about me...where is my destiny written...Is it true that some people make their own destiny...or is that too written in the destiny??

And did Ayn Rand mention that it will take something more than your will power to finish that book...because "I have put in the most torturing thoughts (...depth to width ratio 30:1 ...)of every individual to compare yourself with someone."...Was atlas really shrugged...

Who is John Galt??

Who Moved My Cheese...!! - Dr. Spencer Johnson

Outstanding! amazing! these are the 35 pages worth giving a glance. I happened to have it referred by an unusual person. Never expected it to be like changing the way I percieved life. Never was I like Hem but it is always so important to be like Haw and work like sniff and scurry.

Life now seems to be easy and I always get reminded of a good quote "You miss 100% of the shots if you dont don't take one". This book shall definitely leave its mark.
The author has given a good shot and made me ponder over every moment I live. Analyze the future with or without doing the task. Each thought process counts, experience in life counts, decision making counts, and accuracy counts. The concept of the chaos theory has already had a great impact on my thinking and reading such comprehensions make me able to visualize the level of completeness in my life in a much better way, Or rather the incompleteness of my life.

The strength is not in the amount of power you have or how heavy you are, It depends on the confidence you have inside, how easily are you able to cope up with the changes in your life, or you actually wish the same mundane routine. Are you afraid to change, to get lost again, try to find something you dont know exists. Decision making matters in the trace. What you think, always makes you who you are. The near future is most of the time predictable but even the smallest of your time spent make you travel in one of the infinite approaches you have in front of you.

Consider it as yourself being a point and having all possible directions to move 1 unit of a step in the form of a line. You got to choose one. and then again from the next point repeat the same procedure. Feel what would have been if even one of your decisions would have been a little casual. You would have end up "never" to reach where you were making the earlier decision. It is all as simple as highly complex it can get if you try to apply that in all the fractions of time you spend. Probably thinking of all this may be a step you should not have taken.

I wish you try the ebook once. It won't take more than an hour to finish it. You will surely feel the difference.

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To Kill A Mocking Bird!!

Not so frequent you come across such novels where the theme is so explicitely chosen that you are unable to understand it even when you flip the last pages of the novel.
I feel it takes a lot of courage to complete such novels. When you do not find anything worthwhile in the story, either you leave the novel getting to nowhere or you read it with great lethargy that in the end you end up just consoling yourself that atleast you were able to complete the 300 pages. "Not Bad" I say...but then the mind still boggles to find why...what did the author think that even I am not able to think. Where does the difference lies...

Wikipedia can actually be a good source of fullfilling your knowledge after atleast a thorough reading of such a book. And then I found that the story from the very beginning to the far end was always swaying about the theme but not in the manner I actually wished it were. We actually learn a lot from such novels.
This novel actually took a great deal for me to finish it, probably because I had a momentum for reading whatever lies in my way.

To kill a mockingbird roams around a simple life of an innocent girl, too small to understand various aspects of life, unable to understand what is going on and why is it like that. And then even if she sometimes get what's on, its not possible to view the subject from the point of view the others. Such people tend to live on the conscience of someone else considering him as a godfather.

The story will definitely leave you with the oxford by your side. In the end you will have to appreciate the intelligence of the author and the way she could even potray herself after a great deal of years into a girl of merely 7 years.
The 1960 work is worth giving a glance.

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DADDY

My thoughts ponder over the life of my father, the hardships he must have faced, the love he must have given, the expectations he must have had from me first as a child when trying to walk then a kid trying to learn, then may be a student trying to crack the best of my future and still wishing for the best of my success. Inspite of all that I have lost, inspite of all the generation gap, the chasm that exists in our thoughts and feelngs, he has always tried to support me in the best way he can.

DADDY is one such novel, dunno how I happened to read this one, soon I was totally engrossed in it. The novel evolves the feelings of a father, as caring for his children, for the love of his life, for the best performances in his job. The person thrives to improve the life of his family in the midst of all that he suffers, all that he lapses. Rising with every fall, trying the best of his efforts, neglecting his own conforts for the sake of his children, his family, their future.

The moments he rise after every retrograde in his life, his every decision made eventually grows up to the best possible solution, The novel fully depicts the love, emotions, feelings, care, dreams, expectations. He never minds for when he gets the little or no time for himself to live upon, actually his life is something build of the others, of the one he loves the most. It even potrays what a father feels about his own father and his feelings when he most knowingly re-marries at the age 72. Daniel steel exresses 5 generations in a row.

Though a family drama, Daniel Steel describes it in a most beautifly way that makes us remain captivated till the last page.